Why must I cry once again

its been 10 days that i havent talked to JB and im proud of that accomplishment. Then he goes and ruins it because he texted me today and said "come over at 345 and dont wait by my house". i didnt go. you know i have never done something this hard before. i have never tried so hard to push someone out of my heart that i cared for so very much. Thats what i have to do. I have to push JB out of my heart because i cant have anymore pain or tears in my life. As much as i care for him and want him in my life i have to say and do everything to make him not talk to me. The more he talks to me the more the feeling i have come back. i dont want him back because he wouldnt listen to  me when i needed him to.