I take the time to say Merry Christmas to you and instead of you saying it back you say "k thanks bye". Like really what did I ever do to you? Nothing absolutely nothing. I expect to be treated in the same way I treat you. I respect you and I don't say things that would hurt you, but you could care less. It doesn't matter if I die or am in the hospital you could care less. I just want to have you care even if its a little bit. How would you feel if I didn't respect you? I don't think you would like it very much cause you would be wondering the same thing as to why I am not showing you some respect. If you want respect from me then you better show some respect to me. even when you get on my nerves I still care about you because you are my friend. Or should I say I feel like you are my friend. I don't really know how you think of me. You are 19 years old for fucks sake act like it. You act like some immature high school kid who doesn't know where he's going in life. Oh wait that's right you probably don't know where your going in life so that description fits you perfectly. We have been through hell and back many times, but we can fix those issues. You shut me out of your life completely for 7 months and if you really wanted me out of your life then you wouldn't have talked to me when you did. Think about that for a minute. You must have thought about me and wanted me back in your life. Whether it was for a good or bad reason. I think you just try and start fights between us like I honestly do. We talk and its fine then you stop talking to me and then when I try contacting you, your mad or pissed at me. Why? that's all I wanna know is why. did someone say something about me? did someone say I talk shit about you? whatever it is its not true. I barely bring you up in any of my conversations anymore because I am trying to keep drama out of your life. so when you ask me why I'm talking about you or why people are asking you who I am and I say I don't know, why do you think that is? its because I have no idea about what you are saying. I wouldn't know why people say that maybe its just because they want you to get pissed at me I really don't know. sometimes its the little things that tick you off and i'm sorry about that. I wish you could just tell me what people are saying so I can figure out how to fix things between us. I want us to be friends for a long time I don't know how you feel about that. I think if we just work at it and try now to pick fights then we would be ok. you know what I am trying to say? If you read this I want you to know that you messed me up since February. like I was a complete train wreck I just wish you knew what I was going through. You made me feel like complete shit. I was depressed and it was all because of you. how can you wake up one morning and just decide your never going to talk to somebody ever again. I could never do that because I know how fucked up that it.
to the guy who creates drama. peace.
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