second cousin

Is it weird to like them. I mean like have a crush on them. I know it sounds weird, but there not my cousin cousin they my cousins kids. I feel weird about it but they are just adorbs. I like older guys who are like 17,18,19,20 no older than that. i'm gonna be 16 in a couple months. he's19. hes a navy diver which I think is pretty darn cool. he's cute. I may be the same height or even an inch taller, but that's ok. im tryna get a picture with him but im waiting till tonight. Its funny because everytime he talks to me or tickles me I smile and then when my dad looks at me I have a mad face. oh wow I almost said his name woo. that was close. haha well he turns 20 in april. I have his number now so I can talk to him.