Anchored Down

Im not doing this because i dont love you anymore, i'm doing this because i know i will never stop loving you. There isn't a minute that goes by where i don't love you, even when i'm mad at you i still love you. I may have said i loved others before you, but none of them compare to how much i love you. I really do believe you are my soul mate, the one for me. i just feel like i'm holding you down like an anchor. I never wanted to act like an anchor to you. I feel as if i am preventing you from doing the things you love and want to do. I'm just in the way, holding you down from going anywhere. You won't go anywhere if you don't let go of the anchor holding you down. In this picture....I am the anchor. You need to let go of me in order to move anywhere. Trust me when i say this I do not want to lose you at all, i want to stay with you forever...I just feel like i'm holding you down. I'm sick of being selfish and only thinking of myself, so right here right now i am thinking about you. I'm the anchor holding you down, and i need to let go so you can be free. Free like an angel. I've never loved anybody as much as i love you. I'd do absolutely anything to see you and be with you. Thats thinking what i want. Your always saying "nobody ever cares what adam wants", well i do. I want to know what you want. If you want to live free and do what you love and want to do, i understand. Just let go of the anchor holding you back. If you want to stay where your at then leave the anchor where it is. Its what you want this time, because its not always what i want. I know now it wasnt always about me, i should have listened to there problems and tried to help them when we were friends, but nope i just kept going back to my problems my issues. I want my relationship to be different. 11 months and after everything i'm ready to hear and understand what you want. I have to be ok with whatever it is you choose.

Best end to 2014 and great beginning of 2015

Spent a week with the love December 24th-december 26th, and  December 30th to january 4th. Spending christmas with him was amazing and then new years, even better. I made him a birthday cake which he absolutely loved. Being with him on his birthday meant a lot to me. We went over to his dads for his birthday so i got to meet more of his family. New years day and January 2nd me and him went down to kevwars house, kevin miller (used to be the drummer for the band fuel). His house is actually pretty neat. He has pet turkeys, i never had pet a turkey before and it was surprisingly soft. he has three dogs chloe, chase, and jack. just spending each night with adam was special. i really love him. only one more month till our 1 year.

This is a picture of Me, Adam and his niece maddisyn