Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Wanting something you know you cant have

I have the most perfect guy in my life right now. I tell him all the time how perfect and sweet he is. We talk absolutely each and every day from the moment i get home from school all the way till 2 in the morning the next day. We talk on the phone for hours at a time which i love because i can hear his voice.Sounds perfect right? Well just like any relationship there are some obstacles in the way. Such as him living 45 minutes away from me and for the entire month we have been dating i've only seen him once. That hurts a lot. We make plans to see eachother, but there is always a problem or an excuse why we can't see eachother. I miss him more than anything. This is one relationship that i could honestly say i want to last for as long as it possibly can. There is just something about him that makes me so happy and attached to him, that i dont wanna let him go. My friends don't like him very much they say our relationship is "icky" because of our ages, but it doesnt bother me. I will say the things my friends and classmates say about him really get to me and sometimes make me upset. They probably don't think it makes me upset, but it does. No matter his age i will still like him. We say I love you to eachother every night before we go to sleep. I don't think i can actually say i really mean it considering we have only been dating for one month, but the feelings i have for him are strong. He brightens my day up. I can't wait for school to be over so i can go home and text him. That is one thing i look forward to doing when i get home. He is just perfect. I may say that about a lot of guys, but the way i say it about him is like no other. Its different. The tragedy he had to go through last year was so devastating that it hurt me. When he tries telling me the story he is crying and it makes me cry because its so sad. He should have never went through what he did last year. He still hasnt told me the whole story and i keep telling him he doesn't have to tell me because i can see it makes him upset, he wants me to know it though. 

He is perfect and i hope that it will work out and last a long time. Both of our wishes can come true this summer if we try hard enough.