distressed and agitated

Because of the way he is acting is making me go crazy. Like i honestly just wanna crawl in bed and cry. I don't know what to think. All I know is i'm probably thinking of the worst scenario's possible. My friend is probably right, that i'm over exaggerating. But....what if i'm not and this is all real. What if something is happening and i don't know. There is an explanation for why he is avoiding me and not responding to any of my messages. There is always an explanation. My friend knows that when guys are involved in my life and im into them i pay close attention to every detail. Like absolutely every detail. Thats how i know if something doesnt fit. One odd thing out and i'll catch it. I'm not obsessed i just like to know what is going on. My lunch table thinks he's hiding something or he just isnt in to me anymore. I try to tell them if he was hiding something i think i would know unless he is that smart and i cant see it. I tell them how he has been calling me cutie and how we talked while i was on vacation. we snapchatted for an entire night. when that was going on i was happy. really happy. when i start liking a guy i pick up on everything about them, that way i know what i'm getting myself into. i know exactly what he does for fun. He is an open person that is why i dont get why he would be hiding something from me. I overlook these things to the extent. that is why i am feeling the way i do. Maybe overlooking these things is good, i can find things i didnt know and unveil things i never thought could be there. There are so many things going through my mind right now and i dont know which thing i should follow or think more about. everything is a puzzle right now and i just need to find all the pieces, but i dont know how. This one girl told me today "i told you he was stupid and a dick". i just looked at her. Like don't these people understand that what they say hurts me. like your criticizing someone i like. I don't think you would like it if i started to criticize someone you like or even the person you are dating. Then a couple days ago a girl who sits with me at lunch said "i think he's hiding something from you and he doesnt like you", its just like shut up you don't even freaking know him. Like geez. I'm a very sensitive person and even the littlest thing can send me in tears or close to it. I say i'm distressed because i am very upset and its just annoying. My friend may say im obsessed, but if i was obsessed i would know his every move and every class he has. I would know everything and i dont. I only know the things he tells me and whats on his profile. Wow you know what i just realized....i dont even know his favorite color :'(
thats really poor. I think its either blue or red. his favorite hoodie is red i know that. i know he likes GTA.


through all this crap heres a poem...
"his rich green eyes played with her mind,
the smile that lingered on his face was only for her.
But his touch was so soft, not like the others.
She thought he was sweet, but not like the others."