Did I make the right choice?

Every time i talk about my boyfriend with my mom i say Erics name instead of his. When i'm hanging or talking to my boyfriend i always am about to say eric instead of his name. This kind of thing has never happened to me, which is weird. Yesterday i said eric, luckily he wasnt paying attention because that would have been bad. When i think of my bf erics name pops in my head. like everything is Eric and its annoying. I wanted to be in a relationship so much because i really needed to feel that comfort again and before things got bad. I just dont think im the relationship type of person. I'm always trying to complicate things. I actually have someone who cares about me and wants to be with me and watch i ruin it. i would hate if i were to ruin things because he's a nice guy.