You See What I Mean

I try to move on from....Sebastian, but it just doesn't work. Whenever I seem to be liking a new guy and getting close they hurt me and disappear. Then when they disappear I'm back to liking Sebs. I don't know I sorta feel like I'm meant to like him. Only thing is, if I was meant to like him.....why doesn't he talk to me anymore? I just don't understand things. This is why I say I'd rather cry over some guy who I haven't talked to in 5 months, rather than meet a new guy who treats me exactly the same. You guys understand it right? I hope so. Well yeah I guess I'm back to liking Sebastian again....What else is new. I can't escape the past. I feel like I'm trapped in the past and can't move forward.