Crying every night from all the pain I am in. It is so hard to keep it all bundled up inside me throughout the day. I just want to cry all day, but I can't I have to be strong. Other people may stay "Just get the f*** over him already" or "Move the f*** on". Its not that easy, for me it is so hard. It has been hard for the past 3 months. That is how long I have felt miserable. It hurts so bad I try to do anything that I can to end it all. Sadly I just feel like dieing because then I won't hurt anymore. I won't feel the pain that I am in right now. It will all disappear, which is exactly what I want. But we all know that it is not a good idea, which I know as well. Its just what I feel.
I just want it all to end, I hate feeling like this especially over a freaking guy. It has been time to move on for months and I just can't...reason is because I partially don't want to, while the other part of me wants to let go. I wish I didn't have to go through this. I never thought I'd fall for such a guy that I couldn't get over and would feel so horrible. I don't want pity. This is the truth and i'm just done hiding it. I should just let all the truth out and maybe i'll feel better....haahaa yea doubt it :/
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