Problem 101

I've been talking to some new guys lately and it really hasn't took my mind off him like I thought it would.Well anyways I just hope he has a heart and can tell that I really am suffering. Nothing can hurt more than the feeling of you heart being stabbed day after day because of how broken you feel. When I am feeling all shitty, I think of how he must be feeling right now......"Oh yeah he is probably having a happy awesome life" old me would say. The new me that he created would say something more like this "Oh yeah he is probably screwing one girl after another...he's probably got a line up. He is rolling in the beauty of having people like him...then he rips there heart out and throws it on the ground". Yea that sounds more like me. You see the difference I actually had a heart inside me before then I met him and my heart died. I feel no sorrow for anyone. I don't care about anyone or anything anymore. I just don't give a crap.