Forgetting Him

Dear Friend, I have tried so hard to let him go and forget about him. I tried to do that for a whole week and see how it went. Well you wanna know something. I cried almost every night because it hurt more than anything. I never told you that because you probably would've thought I was a baby or something like that. I cried so much during that week that I just gave up on trying to forget him. Because if that's how it was gonna feel I didn't wanna forget him. You told me everyone gets rejected and that's ok. Yea I know I don't care about that it's just I gave him so much and can't take it back that's hurting me. It's..... I have tried and tried to let go....it just does no good I can't. I do agree with you though that it is time to let go. Point is don't you think I've tried? because I have many times. Have you seen the pain I've been through? no, so how can you know what I'm going through. Because you can't. You can try, but you'll never be able to feel the same. It's half my fault because every time he shut me out I kept taking him back. I know you said I shouldn't have, but I still did. It's just I didn't want it to be over. I never wanted it to end. Like how can he of all people mean so much to me....and I mean so little to him. It's like he thinks of me as a piece of paper and I think of him as the sun. (crappy metaphor I know) but you get the point. I never got a goodbye. :'( It's like he just woke up and thought "I'm done texting/talking to her".....He really isn't gonna ever talk to me again. The last time we spoke he said "just reg friends". We aren't even that. He does't talk to me in school or public for that matter. He doesn't even text me to say hey. NOTHING. My world is falling apart. I feel like it can't be fixed....i'm starting to really think that's true. I JUST WANT TO F***ING SCREAM!! "You really love him, don't you?" nobody knows that answer. "Truth is, I miss him. all the time, every second, every minute, every hour, every day." maybe I do. "Sometimes it's not just about missing someone, it's wondering if they're missing you too." that is so true. "I still remember the first day I met him." of course I do, it's a day I can't forget. "You're gonna fall in love so many times before you find the one you'll be with forever. So think of it this way. You're just one broken heart closer to happily ever after." true, but think of it this way he broke my heart 6 times. and I don't understand why I feel the way I do. I just want the feeling to go. "The only regret I have is that I let you change me into someone I wasn't it hurts because I can never get that back" so so so true "What do you do when the only one who can make you stop crying is the one who made you cry?" idk what you can do. especially if that person no longer talks to you. One last thing "Why do I like someone who doesn't like me in return? Why do I cry over someone who didn't cry too? Why do I always think about him, if he never thought about me? Why do I always wait for him, if he has never waited for me? Why do I see him, but he doesn't see me? TELL ME WHY?"