Sad day.

Now I have to go to school and see his face and try my hardest to keep my self together. It feels like this is gonna be a repeat of how I felt to S. now the same depressing feelings are gonna come and I'll be miserable. It's just me personally. When I care so much about one individual I go my all to make things right with that person even if they are the one who made the mistake. I just try to make it all better so we can be happy again. But S he just woke up one morning and decided not to talk to me anymore.... I went through 6 months of hell crying every night not wanting to do anything because I was always trying to hold the tears back in public. Do you really think I wanna go through that again?no I don't. But I need to change my ways because I changed to fit all his wants and needs and I shouldn't have to do that. 

Things I must do

-delete his number

-move on

-forget people who don't deserve to be remembered

- cry a little

-pick myself up and smile

Goodbye and hello trains again..