Pushing myself farther than the limit..,

 I'm pushing so hard for this to happen. All I want is to have him ask me out on the same day he did last year which is December 7th...... That's in 9 days. How am I supposed to make that happen if he won't listen to how I feel. I need him to understand how I feel about him and get him to listen. But I have 9 days..... That's not much time. If this could happen I would be the happiest person ever.I could say "I love you and merry christmas" I want him to know how much I care. When he's mad at me I cry and try so hard to make things right because I don't want to lose him. I lost him once because I pushed him away and I just can't go through losing him again. I want him to stay. After this year I won't see him because he graduates.

Help me.like I do not have any idea how to do this.