Screwed Up Part

I devoted 5 months of my life to him....and now I've been trying to let go for almost 5 months. When will it end. I'm tired in drowning myself in tears. I am so shocked that I even have tears left to cry because I cried so damn much. My heart hurts more now than ever. The time I cry most is at night when no one can hear me. It's the kind of cry where you have the urge to scream and you have to hold your stomach because you begin to feel sick. The cry where you feel your heart in your throat. It's a sad way to cry.