Stupid Me.

I'm absolutely the dumbest person on the entire planet. I fuck everything up. I didn't know that she wasn't even in the car. I didn't know she was behind the drivers side back tire. I didn't know. I didn't know. I wish I never sent him a letter and that I never talked to him in the first place because then my boyfriend wouldn't be mad at me right now.

I wrote this guy in jail a letter asking if it was my bfs fault and all. And I continued talking to the guy in jail for two months. I should have known it wasn't my bfs fault. I had to tell him I wrote the guy in jail a letter because the guilt was eating me alive. Then he tells me all this stuff making me upset and cry. He yelled at me. And said about how I didn't know that that guy fucked his girlfriend the night she died. And that he had to see her body outside the back of the car behind the tire with her blood on the tree. His girlfriend who was 3 months pregnant with his child. I didn't know that instead I talked to the guy who was at fault for it all And continued developing a friendship with him and was actually beginning to get close with him.only to find out the whole time I should have trusted me bf. Plus it was none of my business because I didn't know any of them. Do it wasn't even my right to know any of it.  I had no right to contact the police officer or send the guy in jail a letter. I had no right to do any of it. It was wrong of me. So I understand why he's mad at me. I actually understand.

update:
we are okay now. he let his anger out and i calmed him down. he said even though i told him that he could never be mad at me since im giving him something he had lost. We are happy and im more than happy i can see him and be with him everyday.