Follower vs Leader

A follower is someone who listens to whatever someone tells them to do and a leader is someone who sticks up for them self and takes things in to there own hands. I am a follower he tells me to do something and i do it. I dont even hesitate or think about it i just follow what he says. He always says "who needs friend, i dont have any i have aquatints". I always used to tell myself  "i dont need friends as long as i have him", i dont know anymore. All i know is if i lose him i lose everything and everyone. Whenever i talked about him with any of my friends they always judged and said shit about him. That hurt me a lot. I never say shit about any guy any of them liked or dated. I may have said they seem controlling or she doesnt seem so nice. But i never said there stupid, dumb, a loser, retarded, disgusting or anything like that. If your thinking it, just think it dont say it to me because that hurt me. My mom always says im a follower and its because i follow what they say and i dont think about what i wanna do.