Hiding the pain

I took 5 steps forward and in one day, one days time i took 12 steps back. I can't hide the pain anymore i cant hide how i feel. For two weeks its been a mask everyones been seeing. Everyone has been thinking i'm getting better and i'm ok. For once people thought i was ok for real. I'm not ok. I want my baby back and i want the love of my life back.I lose my baby and then the week after the love of my life breaks up with me. He just wakes up and says thats it. I put 2 years of my life into that relationship. I never wanted to lose him, i gave him my heart and in return i had it thrown on the floor and crushed. It's not fair. Why was my baby taken from and why was he taken from me. He was my soulmate and i have loved him for 2 years 24 months 104 weeks 730 days 17,520 hours 1,051,200 minutes 63,072,000 seconds